Dazed and Confused.

I've had 3 seizures in the space of 5 days - no past history of seizures. Now back from a 4 day 3 night stay in hospital for observation after having a disturbing 2 day period of increasingly intense 'auras' (pre-cursors to seizures, which in my case were apparently partial seizures).

My memory has been ravaged - this has only been made more apparent over the past day. Things that have happened in recent months are jumbled - not to mention things that I remember from dreams / tv / reality...all confused together and I'm having trouble separating what has actually happened and what I've seen happen (there is a difference).

My family and one friend in particular have been amazing through this weird time and it brings a tear to my eye to think about how worried they've all been having to see me through this. I'll try and be strong for all of you! Not trusting my brain at the moment though and it is really disconcerting to be unable to trust one's own head.

I'm on medication now for mild epilepsy - it seems to have stopped the auras from developing on from anything more than giddy head feelings and a pressing tightness in my chest. Need to see the week out to make sure I don't have a relapse so I've been signed off work for the week - bloody great timing when your big boss is already a bit 'funny' about your necessity in said office.

P.S. Lumbar Punctures are REALLY NOT FUN.